Unhappy has got to be my middle name lately. I really need to find a way to cheer myself up.

Yest was the first good night rest i had in a long time..but even that wasnt enough. i was awakened at 7am..again. Then they left for church at 815. but by then i cud not fall back to sleep again..

Brain feels so fried. It doesnt help that certain events at home have made me feel unhappy n sad.. Now i dont feel like going home anymore. Its 8pm, and im still in the computer lab in school, despite knowing its pitch dark and unsafe walking home at this time.. compared to the period when i was living in the hostel, no matter how frustrated/tired i was, i wud always try to go home early..only stayed in sch when i needed to get certain work done.. I have consecutively stayed in sch till 9pm for 4 days...simply bcos i dun wan to go home.

Its not always bad though. I rem how uncle very kindly gave me a lift to the train station last friday night at 8pm, so that i didnt have to walk out in the dark and wait in the cold for the bus to take me to the train station. And auntie moved my things over to my room from the theatre room last night as well as made my bed for me. Maybe i shldnt be so hurt by the sister's words.. i should not think that auntie also thinks the same way as her sister. Yah.. just concentrate on my work and assignments and ignore the rest.

sighh..i can hear my bed calling out to me..