Reflection

Im starting to see the humorous side of this.. Took me a while but im getting there.. :)
On sat, the family went out for breakfast + morning walk and haven had time to take out the clothes to dry.. Since i wanted to wash my clothes as well, i took out their clean but wet clothes from the washing machine, put my dirty clothes inside to wash, then hang out all of them to dry. Auntie and old auntie came home, both thanked me for hanging out the clothes.. and the old auntie asked which of them hanging were mine. She said she would help me keep them ( i was going to the library to study) since i hanged out their clothes for them. I said no need, i can keep them the next day but she insisted, "One deed for one deed" in teochew..It was futile to argue so i accepted her offer graciously. And when i came home that night, my clothes were folded and placed nicely on my bed.

Fast forward to today. I washed my clothes this morn and hanged them out to dry before i left for school in the morning. Honestly i didnt expect her to keep my clothes for me.. Dont ask me why, its just a gut feeling. Afterall a calculative person would nv do something tat wud upset the balance in the account books right?

And i wasnt disappointed when i came home. My clothes were still hanging outside. But what i saw when i entered my room completely shocked me.

My thick black jacket was dumped unceremoniously on the floor with a clothes peg still on it.

-.-"

okay, i shld not jump to conclusions. Maybe she didnt dump it on the floor. Maybe she had intended to put it on my bed and it slipped from her weak fingers and slided graciously onto the floor and with her bad knees/back, she was unable to bend and pick it up.
Or maybe she did put it on my bed but the strong wind must have blown it onto the floor.

I find it so hard to convince myself though..
Why only my jacket then?? issit to remind me that i still have clothes outside in case i have forgotten??? LOL.

Im just so so thankful that im not like her. So so thankful. i truely believe everything happens for a reason.. Maybe the reason why i had to cross paths with her and her annoying daughter is so that i will appreciate and cherish my mother more.. for all her annoying traits (like obsession with tidiness/cleanliness), she is one of the most generous souls i know on this planet, if not the most. She is the one that teaches me n my sis to live life with the attitude of abundance, not scarcity. My dad taught us discipline, street-smart-ness and world knowledge but my mum imparted values and life skills that had helped shape me as a person. If you want to do something good, do it from your heart, do it without expecting something in return, she always tells me. It is easier said than done, and even more difficult when it comes to someone who has been mean or has hurt you or you simply just dont like. Someone like the old auntie and daughter.
and i managed to overcome my negative thoughts and revulsion..I know much of the credit must go to my mother and her teachings.

I love you mummy. Im sorry for all the times ive been rude to you.I promise i will try to change..you deserve so much better.