Crap

I.Feel.Like.Shit.

passed my pract exam but i feel like shit. i think im a lousy physio.

i should probably find someone who can support me and just stay at home and cook/bake.

:(

Catalogue

hee hee.. there is something about looking at food catalogues that is very therapeutic.. especially during periods of high stress.. lol. think this area has not been researched yet..Ah Low, shall we do a research project on this??? :p

ding ding dong

...ding ding dong..
Good evening. This is the library closing supervisor. The library will closing in 45mins. All services and electronic devices will be ceased at that time. If you wish to borrow any items, please take them to level 2 now. Thank you. We hope you had a pleasant time and we hope to see you again.

Okay. the last sentence was added by me. :p wow, i have spent 2 days in a row in the school library - albeit not pouring over my books and memorising every alphabet that is printed in there but instead was doing my assignments and listening to audio files of lectures for the points that id missed in class. So i guess thats not really considered as studying rite?? Die la!! exams in 2 weeks and im not studying yet!!! mm...ok ok dont panic. its impt for me to get my notes in order first otherwise hard to study also rite?? not to mention all the annoying assignments that are due before the exams. so i guess its still time well spent. :) haha.. the power of the mind. classic example of a person in denial. :p

so what am i going to do in the this last 45mins before the library closes? probably will do abit of my final piece of assignment..then leave it to next weekend library session ba. Tonight's time will be completely dedicated to preparation for my clinical exam tomorrow. Wonder what patient will i get? Neck? Thoracic? Back? or peripherals? please please dont be chronic, lots of associated problems, yellow flags, red flags, black flags..
*prays hard*

library day

wow.. its been years since i last spend so many hours in the library.. 7.5 hours of continuous sitting, minus half hour lunch/toilet break.. the last time i did that must have been during cedar days.. somehow i had never been able to regain that stamina ever since.. which is why i am very surprised at myself.. other than the occassional tinge of back ache (which i made sure to stand up and stretch out my back) and tiredness, the time just went by without significant agony or sense of suffering.. although i didnt get to finish all that id planned out to do, i reckon ive been more productive today than any other day in the last few weeks... lol.

exams are drawing very close.. although im feeling quite scared, i also cant wait for it to be over! So contradicting isnt it? i dont like how exams have seem to turn my life upside down... from the way i sleep, behave, feel, eat..i feel so sorry for the hell im putting my body through... i will definitely try to detox for a week after exams man..

overheard my classmate asking my tutor about PhD...the requirements, duration etc etc.. mm..i think this is it for me le... im turning 30 soon.. okay thats still a few years to go strictly speaking... but seriously, thats almost half of my life journey liao.. time to explore other things besides studying... well even if i do study again, i think i will do something else.. like finance or something.. had a module of statistics this semester and i realise that there is something about numbers that interest me.. they understand me and i understand them. We have what most people would describe as.. instant chemistry..

now i just need to find my chemistry with anatomy....

Compliment of the Year

I was paid the nicest and probably the rewarding compliment of the year today in clinics.

I was writing my notes at the desk when my supervisor W suddenly turned to me and asked me "how many years of working experience have you got dreamy before taking up this course?"

Stunned momentarily, i replied "3 years..."

*awkward silence* (in my heart)

W: ..and how many years were in musculoskeletal?

D: ...mm..about 2/3 of the time..so about 2 years.. (dont ask me why i didnt just say 2 years and had to go all fancy)

W: It shows...

D: er... *another awkward pause*

W: (must have read the uncertainty written all over my face, cos he quickly went on to say) ..its a compliment... you are doing well...

D: (completely taken aback & started fumbling over her words ) ..oh....thank you.. eh i thought you meant it shows that im not experienced enough...

W: no no..you are doing well.. *smiles at D*

soooooo happy... if only he is going to be the one doing my clinical exam on monday.. haiz. my other two classmates are so lucky. Both were supervised by him today.. only i will be doing my exam on mon. haiz. praying hard that everything will go smoothly...

small n cute!

Look what i found in my bag of macademia nuts?? Baby maca nut !!

i noe the photo doesnt do it justice.. the focus becomes blur when i try to bring the camera closer so this is as clear as it gets... its really small n cute! i think about the size of the nail of my pinkie. Yup its THAT small! :) and mama maca nut is sitting right next to it! (okay actually there are alot of 'adult' maca nuts in that bag so i dun really noe which is the real 'parent'.. it cud be 'adopted' for all we know.. hee :p )

Latest noose updates (read from bottom up)

dreamy is recovering, slowly but surely, from the dreadful flu.. as you can probably tell from the bo-liao-ness of this entry.. :p

750pm: Bouncy eyebags has reduced in size by 10% from the sheer volume of sleep dreamy is conscientiously accumulating. BUT analysts say that this 'market' correction will not last in view of the approaching june crisis. They believe the situation will worsen in the next few weeks when hours of sleep drop to make up for the decrease in output over the last few days.

707pm: World markets stabilised on the news of possible bailouts and USD$9,000 (S$12,400) beauty cures.

1310pm: World markets are speculating that there would be further deterioriation in eyebags situation. There are rumours being spread that the eyebags may be droopy on top of being bouncy, although head of IEF (International Eyebag Foundation) Dreamy declined to comment on the matter.

12pm: Investors scrambled in panic after the news of deterioriation of eyebags broke loose.

Dear Blogie,
Sorry for neglecting you for the past week.. pls believe me if i told you that you were frequently on my mind.. as many things had happened in the week..however, miss poor-time-management here just have too much backlog in her work to clear.. :(

let me fill you in on the highlights of my week...starting with.... yummy yummy food!! :)

made low-mai-fan and tang yuan with my housemate last friday! :) its my first time in 25 years making tang yuan.. had originally intended to make sesame-filled tang yuans but housemate cudnt find sesame in the asian grocery store..so had to settle with plain ones.. its really simple to make!! (not sure about fillings though..according to housemate's mum aka mama chef guru, its quite difficult to make smooth sesame paste without a commercial blender.. mm..) no more buying of tang yuans for me! will make for family every year from now on.. cant post our photos online yet cos still with housemate.. :)

then housemate made chicken rice for us on weds to cheer us up cos we look so stressed..so sweet!! :) chicken rice was absolutely delicious and fragrant!! im not a big fan of chicken rice to be honest.. but that day, i actually finished my whole plate of rice.. and its not because of courtesy loh...hee..its unbelievably yummy!.. full of chicken essense and tinge of pandan flavour.. and the best thing is it didnt have the oilyness that we often find in our normal hawker fare.. :) and the chicken is so juicy too!.. makes my mouth water just thinking about it now..

mouth watering authentic chicken rice (and homemade chilli!)

its funny how there are always so many things in my head that i wanna write in my blog.. but when i actually get down to writing, the thoughts just strangely disappear from my subconsciousness.. mm..sign of old age.

im now left with 2 more teaching weeks.. then exams wud be just around the corner.. things are starting to wind up in class, but instead of feeling a relief.. stress levels are rising by the second.. cos all of a sudden, everyday is not just a date anymore but a deadline for something. assignments, pract exam, clinic exam, proposal, presentation, portfolio.. everyday i wake up feeling like ive been run over by a truck.. and puffy eyes from the lack of sleep, sugar overload, carbo overload (i realise i crave carbo when im stressed ).. guess what i discovered today? that my eye bags bounce when i jump...im not kidding..

but despite all these.. i know its all worth it when i graduate at the end of the year..(or should i say..IF i graduate at the end of the year.. ) i love this course.. and i definitely love what im learning here.. :)

im only worried that they might not think that im good enough.. or i do not know enough and fail my written papers.. :(

its an awful feeling when u are only as good as wat others think you are..

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exhausted

today is one of the longest day i have spent in the library for a long long while.. i rem i used to go to toa payoh library after class (in sec sch) and study till dinnertime. And tat is a good 10 years back..Today, i have been sitting in the same spot for the past 6 hours, minus 1 toilet break and 1 10min lunch break, staring at the screen trying to finish up my anatomy assignment. :(( Well at least id a much more productive afternoon today compared to the last few days..completed my assignment and about 70% of my class presentation as well..just need to do the final touching up and reading prior to my presentation at the end of the month. So taking a short break now before embarking on my assignments for clinics. And guess what, i kenna arrowed to do extra work by my tutor today. (Here also can get arrowed!!! wah lau..really seems like i cannot siam arrows no matter how far i run from sg h) He arrowed me to present on one of my patient during this friday's class discussion.. which means.... more work to do. :(((

speaking of which, i must say this patient of mine really cheers up my monday afternoons (thats the day he normally comes to see me).. really cute boy!! no no..im not harbouring any evil thoughts..hee.. he is just like a younger brother (*ahem* cheryl dear, can consider leh.. want or not?? *winks*)

yest i had a wonderful day at clinics..well, i had a tough time, as my new case was really really complicated.. everything points to compartment syndrome but the official test turned out negative.. my supervisor n i were like "how can that be???" especially after i did my assessment.. and i done all the works. Range, power, reflexes, sensation, pinprick, neurodynamics, nerve palpation, specific muscle testing, joint accessories, general palpation. Anyway, we are quite perplexed. Hopefully her vascular scan today will show up something. cos her symptoms are worsening and her frustration of not being able to run (since xmas) is making her very depressed. Poor gal.. i think i will kill myself if i cannot run anymore..
So with all of these, plus her long history of medical/non-medical consultations, i really thought i did a crappy job with her. So naturally felt like crap. Then my supervisor Mich came over at the end of the day and said "poor you, got all the difficult cases... but i did you did a good job with her."

*FAINTS*

Immediate mood booster.

Walked home with a skip in my step.

hee.

hope everyday can be like that. :)

Its mon again!!!!! where did my weekend go??????

Do you remember.....

Guess what the title of my entry means???
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Okay give you a clue... I just got home not long..and needed to take a shower cos my hair smells..of smoke..
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I went clubbing tonight.. :p

My very first experience of clubbing in australia.. Wow.. really quite different from back home! I must really thank my housemate for persuading me to go.. Had initially turned her down cos of my overwhelming amount of work and the guilt i feel for not spending every waking moment reading something related to my studies. T_T
But. in the end i caved in to her meek doeful eyes and pleading expression. She is truely a sweet angel. Even tried to bring forward the "event" so that we can go and leave early..but haha she is such a clubber.. cant stop once she gets onto the dance floor.. somewhat reminds me of the younger me. except that she is a fantastic dancer! And she very humbly attributes it to her dancing background... Such a sweet gal! :)

And so i searched through my wardrobe for appropriate clubbing attire but discovered that i had packed my luggage with the assumption that i would not be doing these wild things over here.lol. And i could only wear my only pair of heels which are more for formal night functions... haha.. such a wardrobe malfunction!! but nobody really cares... hee.. the only thing that pple here care about really is... to have fun. :))

Alot of clubs here have free entry..but have to queue for a while outside the club..but it didnt take very long for us to be ushered into the club. Inside, its not as crowded as most clubs or pubs in sg are.. but crowded enough to be "happening" still..i guess the reason is bcos there are just so many clubs around.. so it wud take really alot alot alot of pple to fill all the clubs up..
The guys here are really direct and erm sort of predative.. :p probably not the nicest word to use but cant think of any other word at the moment leh..its 3.30am in the morning lo.. thats why its impt to club with a bunch of guys friends.. today we had an especially big group..think there were 8 guys and 6 girls..so everyone just watched out for each other.. dancing and letting ur hair down is really such an enjoyable thing to do.. especially when surrounded by friends who are fun-loving and not the least bit uptight.

Oh and i forgot to mention.. my housemate's fren brought us to burswood casino before hitting the clubs. and it was my first time entering a private members-only club within the casino itself..everyone there is so polished, well-groomed and well.. smelt of money.. Even the bartender is quite hot too. hahaha..

i am so glad i took the night off and gave myself a break.. Now its time to hit the books.. but i better hit the sacks first.. can fell my system slowly shutting down already....
nite nite..

i feel fat!!

think i will float naturally in the sea with all that adipose tissue around my waist line. :((((


but Red Rock chips are so tasty.. and Starburst helps me concentrate better on my notes... :)))

amazing day!

quick quick ask me how i feel today!!!

i feel awesome!! done two of my favourite things today..
Iceskating and KFC!! hehhee..
its my first time iceskating here in australia and i have always regretted not going in melbourne..but the rink is just too far from the city... whereas today, the sch housing pple organised the entire trip (from entrance fee to transport to and fro) for us, so of cos i jumped at the opportunity!! and guess wats the icing on top of the cake?? It only cost $5!! definitely cant get that price in sg anymore.. the last i checked, it cost about $17-$18 for 2 hours ticket at Leisure Park Ice World. According to my local fren, its about $30 or so for a two hour ticket, so im guessing the housing actually subsided the cost of the ticket for us. Not to mention the two way transport.. woohoo im so lucky!! :))))))

simply cant explain the feeling i had the moment i stepped into the front entrance..i can see the rink from the entrance and all the reservations i had about spending 5 hours on enjoyment just disappeared. From the moment i took the pair of skates from the front counter, pushed aside the plastic sheets at the doorways and breathed in the icy cold air, i was hooked. It was like homecoming. It became apparent to me how long its been since i last skated when i started shivering within 10mins of entering the rink.. i have worn insufficient layers of clothes... my estimation has become very rusty. and i was sure my ability to skate wud be too.. I was right. :(
Felt like a puppy on ice during my first lap..lol. Sure i was freezing by then already. But it was worth it. Even rewarded myself with a cup of hot chips & chicken nuggets..hee. Yes i know what you are thinking.. nope, no icecream for me today. :D I know i wun be able to last on the ice if i had ordered my usual - icecream. Probably wud have become a standing icsicle for the next Ice Statue Exhibition. :p

Then i rounded up my awesome awesome day with a yumm-licious dinner - KFC chicken.. mwahahha..let me count my sins. 3 pieces of hotNspicy plus 2 nuggets (not counting my iceskating ones :p) plus lotsa chips plus coleslaw plus mashed potato. Hohoho. *pats round tummy* the ones here as as good as those in melbourne.. which only means one thing... erm, let me give u a hint.. in melb, kfc was like my staple food esp during exams.. :p

im feeling so happy and sleepy now... if only i dun have classes tomorrow.. then it wud be just perfect. :)