Closure

I finally understood why I haven had much cravings for ramen or jap food..原来每一件事都需要一个完结篇..

Tonight was the first time in my life when i cried together with someone instead of over someone. I felt no anger, no hatred, no regret, no begrudgement.. only sadness. and relief. Relief that i finally could tell you everything that i kept in my heart all these while. Even if the whole world misunderstands me, as long as you know the truth, im contented.

I have never felt that way before. The last hug before you left.. It wasnt a lovers' hug nor a lingering hug. It was a closure hug which we both needed. I could feel your heart-beat during your embrace.. it was as though your heart was sending a moscow-coded message to my broken heart..It was such a sad moment. But despite all the sadness and heaviness, during that instance, i know everything is going to be alright..we will be alright..maybe not today.. maybe not tomorrow or even the week after.. but eventually..

The healing has already begun.

To a beautiful 2011. :)