Can't believe I cried.. When he said that point the tears just came rolling down.. Without sounds nor noise, it's like a silent waterfall...

I'm overwhelmed by the teachings he shared tonight.. I alwAys knew he was good, just nv had the chance to see or hear him teach personally..
I must put to Practice wat he shared today ... I promise to devote half hr to N hr daily to self reading n reflection..

We must learn to love ourselves.. You can avoid everyone but you cannot avoid yourself.. It's a person you hav to be with 24 hrs a day, 366 days a year...

He said many many things, dished out many many thought-provoking advice..words I can only hope I ll be able to rem for the rest of my life..
But remembering is not enough.. You nd to believe and constantly work to achieve it.. To practise it..

My fav quotes:
'compassion and a smile are the best makeup anyone can have'

'wealth, health, love and happiness. Which is the most important thing in life?
Love. When you have love, everything else will follow..' And this love refers to love for family, friends, partner, strangers and yes, even enemies...

PTC duty this wk ..

For those who are unfamiliar with the term PTC, it means a special shift comprising of half day normal shift n half day on-call.. To b honest, I quite like the shift..for a couple of reasons.. Firstly, I get to wake up late..secondly, I get to miss the mad morning rush n congestion at our trystybpublic transport system.. Thirdly, I'm spared from the mad morning rush at work (fighting for gym space, case notes from other health professionals etc etc).. The only disadvantage is that it further reduces what ever limited social life I'd.. Haha.. Oh and how can I forget, all those annoying calls from a&e.. Seeing pts are fine, I'm more than happy to do that, educate them on crutches, stairs, elevation etc etc.. It's the mess, disorganisation & unaccountability (everyone keeps saying that's not my PT, I dunno, not done by me, u have to ask someone else!!!!!!)) that drives me up the wall.. Just tonight they made me so mad that I wanted to strangle someone!!! N I almost made a huge blunder, to add salt to injury.. Thank god heavens must have been shining on me n Pradeep came to my rescue at the right moment.. Otherwise I'm going to have hell for the next 2 weeks... Phew.

Tomorrow is the last ptc duty.. Pray for things to go smoothly without a hitch.. Knee pain is starting to play up again today.. Hope it ll get better tmr.. Otherwise have to cancel my afterwork plans le... :(

Jia you jia you!!!

Once again, my eyes remain p wide open as I lay on my begueoning bed, pondering over what has been, should have been and what will be... Suddenly my fren's wise words rang loud n clear in my head like a school bell announcing recess. "you think too much.."

What r u doing up at 340am?? It's not like the world is waiting for u to save japan..
Dunno wats eating me away..

Tired but can't sleep...this has got to b the most dreaded nightmare of all patients..

Ate somuch when I got home just now.. Nuts, jelly, shakeima, jap seaweed.. Even I scare myself at my sheer gluttony... :)

There r so many things I wish to share yet I simply dunno where to start..

Mood was in the dumps lately..everything in my world had seemed to be crumbling down, albeit all due to my doing.. Depressed? I think I might have been alittle even..although Im sure I would hesitate to admit openly..
However, I believe I might hit rock bottom and am slowly but surely beginning my resurfacing process..

Its doing me good to go out and socialise.. All those late nights at work n moping at home were stumbling blocks that I can surely do without..

Stay positive.. Everything ll b alright...

Greed

I've become greedy.. I think that's why im not happy with my life.. I want this. I want that. Why can't I have this？ why cant I have that?
Why is this happening? Why is that not happening?

For my sake n my future, I have to change my thinking.. I ll not b given a second chance again. This is a wake up call..

This is my wake up call.